To the man of my dreams **Carlos**

Well what can i say? i am adored and lavished with love and gifts from my boyfriend. i couldnt have asked for anyone else to spend forever with. He is exceptional and unique but corny...i feel lucky and priviledged to be given so much attention to. i am blessed. i feel bad for those petty girls who broke his heart and threw him away because they lost the best thing that could have ever happened to them. i am happy to flaunt him and say he's mine.  we've been through thick and thin with each other and we have managed to stay true and in love with each other. we bring the best of out of each other. this is the first time in a long time that i'm not sad or embarrased to call someone my bf because he's been able to win my family over...which is a lot compared to what others have neglected to do...

he is the peanut butter to my jelly, the shoe to my feet, the banana to my split (no pun intended).

so cheers to you babe.

I <3 you with all my heart

Free The Troubles

its quite fascinating how things can change in the lapse of a couple of months and even more in a few years. reading back on my previous posts i realize who i was and i realize that i'm no longer that innocent and friend driven. my life depended on who my friends were and how close i was to them but after high school i realized that friends shouldn't be what is important in my life but what i do in my life. that might be selfish but truthfully friends are only support systems that can only handle certain situations and when they cant, you are on your own.   it is up to the individual to seek professional help if they cant do it on their own but either way one must face personal and big situations on one's own for self improvement and independence from relying on anyone else. we each hold our own truths and freedom to deal and conquer the greatest troubles that come our way. but its ok to share our burdens with someone we trust even if we know that they cant help. talking about it helps.

so this is for my friend....i know i cant help you but i'm here to listen and help you find help... i used to listen to your problems and u listened to mine, we grew apart but you were always on my mind when i had a problem and i hope that you think of me now that you have a problem.

with all my love
Smiley

what love is

love is selfless and it never dies

i finally found it

wow. it took forever to remember the web address for this blog.. its been years since i've written on it or even thought about it. a lot has changed

well

No one ever checks this anymore...whats the point of posting stuff on here....you can tell that the only reason why i still keep up with this crap is because im so freaken bored...!!! well who ever checks this should post something interesting on my comment space...well if you could please help me out by feeling special...lol...laterz

love then lozerz

Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away

You've got your mother
and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know
this situation's getting old
And now the more you talk
The less I can say, oh

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me I'm all alone
So, before you start defendin
'Baby, stop all your pretendin
'I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today

HeyI'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey

Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I wanna love
I want a fireTo feel the burn my desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk away
Then just leave
Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away

So...How is my life..

My life is Gggrreat, wanna know why, well first let me give you a recap of what has actually been going on in my life, First and formost shcool is fine i learn something new everyday wether it be concerned with school or something out of shcool. Oh and im over the death of my pet, it didnt take me that long to get over it, maybe like a week..but i had time to reflect on the good times that i had with him and other people and in the prosses i became good friends with someone who is now my boyfriend..Hi babe, im telling the whole world...Just so they know im with you..ok..i hope its ok with you..Anyways because of him im the happiest i can be with him or when im not around him, either way im happy but im happier when im with him..although i show it more when im not around him..lol .. ok..well tahts it..laterz loserz

Love them loserz,
Smiley Bubbles is loving it..

I Cry For You and I Miss You

20 Minutes ago i had a pet.
20 Minutes ago my mom decided to clean my pets cage.
25 minutes ago i saw my pet.
20 Minutes ago my pet escaped from his cage and became dog food.
20 minutes ago i thought about feeding my pet in the morning.
20 Minutes ago i had a pet.
I wish i could take those 20 minutes back so that none of this would have happened to my beloved pet.

To my pet....I will always love you no matter where you are....You'll always be in my heart and i will mourn and cry for you everyday, until the day when i may be happy again. I thank you for the time you spent with me and made me smile. I cry for you now with all of my will. The tears i shed for you are real and only for you. So long my beloved pet...I will always have you in my thoughts....I know it might seem over dramatic to cry for a bird, but i really loved this bird...I had had him since i was 7 yrs old and now i have lost him forever....I hope that he is a better place....There is no one to blame im sure it was his time to go and i hope God takes good care of him until i can take him back one day... In the mean time I only ask for comfort....