To the man of my dreams **Carlos**

Well what can i say? i am adored and lavished with love and gifts from my boyfriend. i couldnt have asked for anyone else to spend forever with. He is exceptional and unique but corny...i feel lucky and priviledged to be given so much attention to. i am blessed. i feel bad for those petty girls who broke his heart and threw him away because they lost the best thing that could have ever happened to them. i am happy to flaunt him and say he's mine.  we've been through thick and thin with each other and we have managed to stay true and in love with each other. we bring the best of out of each other. this is the first time in a long time that i'm not sad or embarrased to call someone my bf because he's been able to win my family over...which is a lot compared to what others have neglected to do...

he is the peanut butter to my jelly, the shoe to my feet, the banana to my split (no pun intended).

so cheers to you babe.

I <3 you with all my heart

Free The Troubles

its quite fascinating how things can change in the lapse of a couple of months and even more in a few years. reading back on my previous posts i realize who i was and i realize that i'm no longer that innocent and friend driven. my life depended on who my friends were and how close i was to them but after high school i realized that friends shouldn't be what is important in my life but what i do in my life. that might be selfish but truthfully friends are only support systems that can only handle certain situations and when they cant, you are on your own.   it is up to the individual to seek professional help if they cant do it on their own but either way one must face personal and big situations on one's own for self improvement and independence from relying on anyone else. we each hold our own truths and freedom to deal and conquer the greatest troubles that come our way. but its ok to share our burdens with someone we trust even if we know that they cant help. talking about it helps.

so this is for my friend....i know i cant help you but i'm here to listen and help you find help... i used to listen to your problems and u listened to mine, we grew apart but you were always on my mind when i had a problem and i hope that you think of me now that you have a problem.

with all my love
Smiley

what love is

love is selfless and it never dies

i finally found it

wow. it took forever to remember the web address for this blog.. its been years since i've written on it or even thought about it. a lot has changed