To the man of my dreams **Carlos**

Well what can i say? i am adored and lavished with love and gifts from my boyfriend. i couldnt have asked for anyone else to spend forever with. He is exceptional and unique but corny...i feel lucky and priviledged to be given so much attention to. i am blessed. i feel bad for those petty girls who broke his heart and threw him away because they lost the best thing that could have ever happened to them. i am happy to flaunt him and say he's mine.  we've been through thick and thin with each other and we have managed to stay true and in love with each other. we bring the best of out of each other. this is the first time in a long time that i'm not sad or embarrased to call someone my bf because he's been able to win my family over...which is a lot compared to what others have neglected to do...

he is the peanut butter to my jelly, the shoe to my feet, the banana to my split (no pun intended).

so cheers to you babe.

I <3 you with all my heart

Free The Troubles

its quite fascinating how things can change in the lapse of a couple of months and even more in a few years. reading back on my previous posts i realize who i was and i realize that i'm no longer that innocent and friend driven. my life depended on who my friends were and how close i was to them but after high school i realized that friends shouldn't be what is important in my life but what i do in my life. that might be selfish but truthfully friends are only support systems that can only handle certain situations and when they cant, you are on your own.   it is up to the individual to seek professional help if they cant do it on their own but either way one must face personal and big situations on one's own for self improvement and independence from relying on anyone else. we each hold our own truths and freedom to deal and conquer the greatest troubles that come our way. but its ok to share our burdens with someone we trust even if we know that they cant help. talking about it helps.

so this is for my friend....i know i cant help you but i'm here to listen and help you find help... i used to listen to your problems and u listened to mine, we grew apart but you were always on my mind when i had a problem and i hope that you think of me now that you have a problem.

with all my love
Smiley

what love is

love is selfless and it never dies

i finally found it

wow. it took forever to remember the web address for this blog.. its been years since i've written on it or even thought about it. a lot has changed

well

No one ever checks this anymore...whats the point of posting stuff on here....you can tell that the only reason why i still keep up with this crap is because im so freaken bored...!!! well who ever checks this should post something interesting on my comment space...well if you could please help me out by feeling special...lol...laterz

love then lozerz

Kelly Clarkson - Walk Away

You've got your mother
and your brother
Every other undercover
Tellin' you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is
That it's cupid, baby
Lovin' you has made me this way
So before you point your finger
Get your hands off of my trigger
Oh yeah
You need to know
this situation's getting old
And now the more you talk
The less I can say, oh

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I waited here for you
Like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed?
I gave you everything
And never asked for anything
And look at me I'm all alone
So, before you start defendin
'Baby, stop all your pretendin
'I know you know I know
So what's the point in being slow
Let's get the show on the road today

HeyI'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey

Just walk away
Just walk away
Just walk away

I wanna love
I want a fireTo feel the burn my desires
I wanna man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you gonna fight for me?
Die for me?
Live and breathe for me?
Do you care for me?
'Cause if you don't then just leave
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standin' here?
Hey, hey, hey, hey
Just walk away
If you don't have the answer
Walk away
Just walk away
Then just leave
Yeah yeah
Walk away
Walk away
Walk away

So...How is my life..

My life is Gggrreat, wanna know why, well first let me give you a recap of what has actually been going on in my life, First and formost shcool is fine i learn something new everyday wether it be concerned with school or something out of shcool. Oh and im over the death of my pet, it didnt take me that long to get over it, maybe like a week..but i had time to reflect on the good times that i had with him and other people and in the prosses i became good friends with someone who is now my boyfriend..Hi babe, im telling the whole world...Just so they know im with you..ok..i hope its ok with you..Anyways because of him im the happiest i can be with him or when im not around him, either way im happy but im happier when im with him..although i show it more when im not around him..lol .. ok..well tahts it..laterz loserz

Love them loserz,
Smiley Bubbles is loving it..

I Cry For You and I Miss You

20 Minutes ago i had a pet.
20 Minutes ago my mom decided to clean my pets cage.
25 minutes ago i saw my pet.
20 Minutes ago my pet escaped from his cage and became dog food.
20 minutes ago i thought about feeding my pet in the morning.
20 Minutes ago i had a pet.
I wish i could take those 20 minutes back so that none of this would have happened to my beloved pet.

To my pet....I will always love you no matter where you are....You'll always be in my heart and i will mourn and cry for you everyday, until the day when i may be happy again. I thank you for the time you spent with me and made me smile. I cry for you now with all of my will. The tears i shed for you are real and only for you. So long my beloved pet...I will always have you in my thoughts....I know it might seem over dramatic to cry for a bird, but i really loved this bird...I had had him since i was 7 yrs old and now i have lost him forever....I hope that he is a better place....There is no one to blame im sure it was his time to go and i hope God takes good care of him until i can take him back one day... In the mean time I only ask for comfort....

Quiero Que Sepas

Quiero que que tu entiendas

sin que yo nada te diga

que has vuelto de otras vidas

a vivir para que aprendas.

Que no te engañen tus ojos cuando mires,

que no te engañe el corazón cuando sientas,

que eres tú quien pone los colores

y eres tú quien fabrica tus dolores.

Que es tu cuerpo apenas una forma

que recubre los entornos de tu alma,

es igual arriba como abajo

y es igual adentro como afuera.

No preguntes nunca nada,

porque ya lo sabes todo;

solo mira, escucha, siente... y calla,

muy adentro está el silencio

donde nunca DIOS te falla.

No juzgues al traidor

ni castigues al ladrón,

ni hagas galas de perdón

ni de ningún otro don.

No le cuentes a ninguno

que la vida no te asombra,

que te alumbra siempre el sol

y es la luna tu sombra.

Aprende que tu tiempo

está contigo y es ahora,

del pasado ya aprendiste

y el futuro no existe.

Si eres blanco no importa,

si eres negro tampoco,

si eres alto también,

que si eres bajo da igual.

Porque eres parte de todo,

eres parte de un plan

y nada haría el arroz

si todo fuera trigal.

Siembra siempre tu esencia,

no pienses en volver;

recogerás sin saber

los frutos de otra cosecha.

Pero no siembres nunca traición

ni abones la vida con dolor,

que matas la esperanza

y frustras la ilusión.

Recibe todos los dolores;

te vinieron a enseñar,

aprende cada lección

para que no te vuelva a tocar.

Pendiente no dejes cuentas

que te tengan que cobrar,

deja que la muerte te sorprenda

sin nadita que sanar.

Pero si llegado el final,

por cosas nuevas te toca regresar,

no te olvides de elegirme,

para volverte a alumbrar

How do you deal with friends and family departing and leaving you behind?

Im undecided about how i feel. I dont know, wether i feel happy or sad, maybe i am sappy. Well why you ask, because i am sad for myself but happy for others. I dont want to be selfish and be like why did you leave and why arent you talking to me anymore, but i realized that everyone has to move on, i have to move on even though i am stuck in a little glass box, just waiting the day when i will be able to escape or when someone will help me out. But anyway, im happy for those who have helped me along the way of my troubles and i am pleased that most are doing fine, i dont know your current state of matter but i can feel it in my heart that you are ok. I am happy for those best friends that i had last year although you all have left me but i can understand the reason of some of you. One of my best friends left to pursue his carrer as a pianist, and although i am sad about him leaving me and not talking to me anymore, i understand that he had to go and i have to move on. I thank him for showing me what real friendship is all about. Although it may seem that him leaving me behind is not considered real friendship but what most dont know is that i encouraged him to go, i supported him all the way, even when he had doubts, i made him see that people here would be fine without him. What he did for us was good and were thankfull. You know i have never had a real bestfriend, who stays a best friend for years, yeah i know thats sad, but i have never met someone who stays my best friend forever. Oh well, i guess friendship comes and goes, but family is always family. Even though sometimes having a best friend would be better than having a family. Just Kidding.

Deception is one thing that i have lived with all my life. I dont know how to move away from that and i dont think i ever will learn to let it go.

The Simplest Test When You Have Faith....Do you have Faith?

The Lords Prayer

Our Father, who are in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name,
Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day, our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we
forgive those who
trespass against us. And lead us not into temptation but deliver us
from evil.
For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory, forever.
Amen.

Next, stop and think and appreciate God's power in your life,
for doing what you know is pleasing to Him.
If you are not ashamed to do this

Jesus said, "If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before My Father"
If you are not ashamed, send this message...only if you believe.
"Yes, I love my God. He is my fountain of Life and
My Savior. He Keeps me going day and night. Without Him, I am no one. But with Him, I can do everything, Christ is my strength."
This is a simple test.
If you love God and you are not ashamed of
all the great things that He has done for you,
send this to everyone you know.
God loves you and watches over you every day.
If God brings me to it, he will bring me through it.

Im sad today, just like i have been for the past week. Oh well, theres nothin anyone can do about it. Well i have good news, my dirthday is on Sunday 6 of November. Yeah im gettin old i will be 16, but i wont have a party. Im ok with that its not like i actually celebrate my birthday or any other holiday. Well if any of you would like to drop by my house and chill with me a little while, you can. Or if you just want to say somethin' to me like HAPPY BIRTHDAY then call me.. If you want my nunber here it is, 214 942 3729. OH and DONT CALL me if I dont know you.

Smiley Bubbles loves all losers :)

Tu Felicidad

This poem was writen in spanish and i havent had the time to translate so i left it in spanish, hopefully you guys can read and understand spanish. I also hope that you like this poem. There is another one at the end of this one that is in english and i hope you all like that one too.

Cuando el cielo se llena de sombras,
y la esperanza se nos pierde en el horizonte,
y las puertas se cierran sin cesar...
Cuando todo a nuestro alrededor fenece,
la oscuridad cae sobre nuestra senda,
al abrir los ojos y ver tan sólo desolación y el horizonte oscuro,
siento un vacio en mi corazón y la tristeza se apodera por un instante de mi alma...
Mas al verme y sentir que aún vivo,
puedo caer de rodillas y decirte mi Señor:
Gracias... gracias.
Tu fidelidad ha permanecido intacta y mi senda dirige sus pasos hacia ti, en medio del dolor tú fuiste mi consuelo y mi fuerza en mi debilidad;
mi sustento cuando todo faltó,mi luz en la oscuridad,
has sido mi oasis en el desierto.Contigo siento vida y libertad.
Te amo mi señor.

Autor: Karim Magaldi, 2005


DIRECTIONS TO OUR FATHER'S HOUSE.
Make a Right onto Believeth Blvd.
Keep straight and go through the Green Light, which is Jesus Christ.
There, you must turn onto the Bridge of Faith, which is over troubled water.
When you get off the bridge, make a Right turn and Keep Straight.
You are on the King's Highway - Heaven-bound.
Keep going for three miles:
One for the Father,
One for the Son,
and One for the Holy Spirit
Then exit off onto Grace Blvd.
From there, make a Right turn on Gospel Lane.
Keep Straight and then make another Right on Prayer Road.
As you go on your way, Yield Not to the traffic on Temptation Ave.
Also, avoid SIN STREET because it is a DEAD END.
Pass up Envy Drive, and Hate Avenue.
Also, pass Hypocrisy Street, Gossiping Lane, and Backbiting Blvd.
However, you have to go down Long-suffering Lane, Persecution Blvd. andTrials and Tribulations Ave.
But that's all right, because VICTORY Street is straight ahead!
SEND THESE DIRECTIONS TO YOUR FRIENDS SO THEY WILL NOT GET LOST.
Be ye blessed, Jesus is coming real soooooon = get ready, get ready, get ready!

Hey

Hey you guys that read my blog, there are other things that i post, there are other things that i have posted on my other blogs, if you would like to view my other posts just click on the side where it says links and click on one of the first links to check out my other thoughts, and if you want just post your comment on this blog because if you're not a member of the websites of my other blogs you are unable to post your comment so feel free to post it on this one. See you later, I guess...?

Smiley loves ya'll.
:)

In The Moment :)

Around the corner I have a friend,In this great city that has no end,Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,And before I know it, a year is gone.And I never see my old friends face,For life is a swift and terrible race,He knows I like him just as well,As in the days when I rang his bell.And he rang mine but we were younger then, and now we are busy, tired men.Tired of playing a foolish game,Tired of trying to make a name."Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim Just to show that I'm thinking of him."But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,And distance between us grows and grows.Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."And that's what we get and deserve in the end.Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean.If you love someone, tell them.Don't be afraid to express yourself.Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.Seize the day. Never have regrets.And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

Tomorrow

Well most people live thinking of tomorrow, im not saying its a bad thing but people have to live in the present.People have to stop thinking so far into the future because if you dont you forget to live in the present, and that leads to failure because you dream of what can be and what you want to be. Again im not saying thats a bad thing but try to live in the present thinking of one day at a time. You might live happier that way because you dont stress over what you have to do in order to become that which you want to be so badly. Take my thought and advice into consideration.
Until then. Enlighten your day with my words of wisdom.

Acadec & School

Which one do I put first, School is the basis of my future and Acadec is the challenge of the success of my future. What should i concentrate more on? Its hard, right now i've beem puting school work first and not study for the tests in Acadec so im really behind, i mean way behind. Im like number 32 out of 35 people, 32 is my rank. Im not used to being ranked so low i was used to be in the top ten or fifteen. Im so stressed as well, uh. Anyways i dont think im gonna be able to handle both for right now, maybe when i get used to it i will do better on both, im worried about both because it affects me either way. My grades will fall either way i put it. Unless i can begin to manage both. Anyways i got to go, but Mr. Locke if you read this, give me some advice as well as you Lozers who care about me.

And We're Off

Well the cowboys won yesterday, so im happy for them. Anyways on to another subject. How many of you have been hasled with homwork, and with chores, until you die and your hands fall off??? Well i have, sort of, my teachers hassle me with homework, and my dad hassles me with having to do tortillas for him everyday. I mean everyday... I sometimes cant finish my homework because i have to make tortillas for him. Well enough about me. What about yall. Im boring i know. So i havent talked to Olivia in a long time and i just talked to Bogar this morning. So it really hasnt been a good start of the year. O well, thats what i always say..SO write to me and tell me that i suck. Peace hommies.


Smiely Loves you Lozers...

Well So I miss My Peeps

Well I miss my peeps that i was very close with, like Olivia and Bogar and Manuel. Well as most of you know that Bogar went to Booker T. so now you can stop asking ME where he's at. And my best friend Olivia is still here at SHS but i dont see her very often because i dont have her for any classes. Oh and Manuel, God nows where he is, i know too but i dont want to say. Moving on i miss Mr. Locke who is gone and will never come back permanently, but he will be at SHS on Wednsday to teach Economics for the people in Academic Decathlon, wich is going rather well for me even though i dont have very good scores and am one of the lowest ranks right now, i know its sad but im trying, its really hard because i have too many things going on, and have become very moody as well. Oh and i have too many things too study, you know i thought that geometry was hard but it really isnt, well at least right now it isnt. I hope to my peeps again someday on the same day at the same time in the same place and that we may be happy with our outcomes which i know that many of us are not, i speak of this because of what i know, which i will not say what i know for someone else's benefit and my social benefits and purposes. OOh i should made that sound intelligent by saying many things that really make no sence. Well i got to go.

Lovely but Moody,
Smiley

Love you Lozerz with a ''z''. Muah

p.s.
Olivia, if your bored you know that you can wright on your other blog and that you can call me when you can, and you can check your email too.

I'm Back

Hello Chicos y Chicas, and all of my buddy's, Im Back from Veracruz!!... I got back today, which is saturday, i got here at 7 in the morning, we rode all night so i could be here before school starts and so i could rest. Hope to see all you guys next year, well except Bogar, he says he wont be going to Sunset anymore cuz he was accepted to Booker T. Washington. Anyways i didnt bring anything for memories only the ones that i have in my brain that i will never forget.

Oh and this is to the Anonymous person, who are you?? Why do you choose to be anonymous and not fess up and say who you are??...

Later Loserz,
Smiley

P.S.
Oli im happy you have accepted Jesus in your life and hopefully with him in your life he will illuminate you into the correct path to a good life and help you through your obstacles and problems.

Dont tell God how big your problem is, tell your problem how big your God is.

God Bless you.

Oh and im commited to God know more then i ever was. This has been a good summer for me and a pretty good year also.

well got to go.